Follow my heart.

Live with no regrets.

I can deal with pain, with hurt because lessons will be learnt.

What I cannot deal with would be regret. Thus my choice.

To the people who love me, I need to know that although you guys are not behind my choice. You guys would be there for me.

It’s hard to rationalize my decision because only I see it as rational.

I regretted the way I treated him in the past and it’s something I find hard to live with.

This time round, I do not want to regret.

Many of you might wonder, what I am doing now, clinging on pathetically, wouldn’t I regret that?

No. I wouldn’t.

I hate to admit it. But at this point, its staring back at me, I am in love.

Blinded by it.

In love with a guy many of you would want to slay.

I expect nothing in exchange for my actions.

“She’s cheapening herself!” exclaim many.

Because I expect nothing in return. But isn’t that what they call unconditional?

Expecting nothing does not equate to not hoping.

I hope. Very much I do. That one day he will see it.

But I do not expect it neither do I want to pressure him into anything before he is ready.

If you ever read this. I hope you see now with clarity that I do not expect anything in return.

Do not force yourself.

I was never angry with you because to throw away our friendship over a little jealousy or minor issues would be a waste.

However ugly it may get between the both of us.

Remember I am always here as your friend.

Because a friend means more to me then anything else.