So surreal it seems that finally he is back.

But all has changed, no longer the carefree kids we were but all weighed down by the responsibilities of our age.

No longer as sheepish as before, ET has changed. Haven’t we all?

It is funny where the twist and turns of life may bring us, to places we never thought we would be.

Literally for our nomadic Mattie who spends his night at different places every night.

Well at least once my lovely bro is back; he wouldn’t have to be Matt the Nomad.

Spent the past days with ET and for awhile, all my sadness aside and I am back where I was 2 years ago. Single and very happy.

But I have changed. Still single, sometimes happy but best of all, I am confident now.

And yes, the minor things, drinking, smoking, staying out late.

I missed him so much. But now that he is here. Shouldn’t I be on cloud nine?

Do not doubt that I am glad to see him. Because I am. My major crush of 2004.

How could I not be?

Sometimes I wonder, could he be my summer fling?

To tide me over my emotional turmoil, but if I ever went down that path, would I lose what I ever was?

I talk about him, I show you his pictures; not to spite you or incite jealousy, only to acquaint with the people who mean a lot to me.

It is you who holds the key to my heart.

For now, it is you who makes me happy.

So if you have thought otherwise, I am beckoning you now, take this shot.

For both of us. Because after all those twists and turns we each took.

Look where it brought us.

I believe that if we came together once again, it would be for a reason.

Why take the chance you may ask.

Its better to have loved and lost, then to have never loved at all.

He means a lot to me, but you mean just as much as he does.

It is you whom now I love.