It’s funny, how now that I am older, I want my parents to be part of my life. I try hard to get them to be integral in my decision making process but now roles reversed. They want no share of it anymore. Conveniently quoting “I trust your decision” but do they mean it? Or do they want no part when the decision results in regrets? I try to convince myself that that is not the case and that they really feel I am mature enough to decide the best for myself. Particularly you daddy, am I no longer worth your time because of my choice to pursue a diploma instead of being the daughter you wanted in a junior college? And because of that, I am forever condemned and no choice I make would be a difference anymore that even a tv serial you were not interested in was more important?

Yes I made my decision, but I wanted you to be part of it, to see it from my perspective. Did you even try to listen to my options? Did u realize that yes I am not the best in school but I am close to being the best I can be? But I guess I am no longer good enough. No longer important enough and the television gave you more than I could. Did you see how close to tears I was when you said you were busy watching tv when I wanted to sit down and discuss my options again with you. I need your guidance however much you would like to deceive yourself.

I need you daddy. To be with me. But as I see you sitting there watching the television, I do not feel your presence.

Why wouldn’t you walk with me anymore daddy?

I want to be daddy's girl once more why is it so hard?