Thursday, August 19, 2004
Are there times when you wanna know about something so badly although you are aware when you probe deeper it would change the perception of your beautiful world and you would begin to hate yourself?
“Curiosity kills the cat”, many have used this phrase but only today have I found its true meaning. I wanted to know so much, reading PETA articles on their website (
http://www.peta.org/ visit if you think you can stomach these cold facts), processing information that I knew would change my thoughts in a manner I was not ready to take a turn to but yet, temptation was so great.
Seeing the treatment meted out on those Chinchillas, chickens, calves, cow all the animals we farm for food products or their skin, fur.
We talk so much about humane death penalty of criminals who cold bloodedly committed crimes but why when it came to animals, animals with emotions and intelligence, we could just turn away and end their lives with such INHUMANE practices. They are innocent, and with their death only can they provide us with the luxury we have.
Why can’t we put more effort into easing their death?
They have already made that ultimate sacrifice, why can’t we sacrifice a little of the profit we gained from their death?
To ask the world to stop eating meat or buying animal products would be too much to ask. Just that small favour to make their short lives a better one, their death less pain is just too much isn’t it?
I feel so useless, so guilty.
How can a girl like me whose determination can hardly even get her to diet, do something for HERSELF, fail. What great things can I accomplish? How much can I help these animals?
I dare not preach or expect too much from the world, when I myself cannot even diet, much less become a vegan.
I know all this seems so dramatic, so unreal like speech from a drama queen, but this are my deepest secrets, my failures.
I seek for the answers to my prayers and cruelty of the world I live in.
No more perfect world.
Total nihilism but all is shattered.
12:32 PM*
