We would always remember Neh Neh for her incredible zest for life.
To us, she was an embodiment of strength and wisdom.
Her thirst for knowledge was boundless.
She had instilled in us the life lessons: That life is a never-ending pursuit of knowledge.
That life would be a pleasant journey if we will it to be.
And that we must seize each day to live life with no regrets.
We are thankful for her wisdom and teachings.
And now, her steadfast guidance would surely be missed.
To be called home on Valentine’s Day, peacefully in her sleep.
It is not only an apt ending to an extraordinary life story.
But also the beginning of a wonderful and loving memory.
To Neh Neh: We carry you in our hearts forever. Nai Oin Ni.
Helplessness and guilt are what I hold in my heart now.
She was small, defenseless, injured, cold and hungry.
Yet all I did was provide her warmth, food and a box.
Ignorance is bliss. How true that quote is.
I wished I never saw her, heard her desperate cries.
I pray that wherever she is, she will find peace and the evil of the human heart would never touch her.
Lord, I pray for forgiveness for providing her with everything but a home.
Let me find peace with my actions.
Little time we spent, but you’ve wormed your way into my heart.
Now as I lay down to rest. It is you I think about, your cries I hear.
If our paths crossed once again, you will be mine.
Solace is what I seek.
Grant it upon me.
Finally, my holidays. The time when all celebrate.
But my holidays, nothing much to rejoice for.
FYP
My team is crashing. My friends, turned against one another.
But hope, hope and perseverance. I think that can be a cause for celebration.
I know we can bring our team up.
I know I can move on.
I know I can be the girl I’ve always wanted to be.
Of course, the inkling of me getting a 4.0 this sem sure places the cherry on top of the cake!
I am so happy for you.
I hope you are for me too.
I’ve read it all. Against all better judgment.
Funny, I feel glad for you.
That you’ve found someone to make you fall in love once more.
See, the world is full of love. Don’t spend time hating it.
When time brings away all the pain. I’m sure I’ll remember the times we had it good.
It may not mean much to you. But it would for me.
And then, we could be true friends.
Hope.
A strong word.
A word of inspiration and my source of determination.
I met Mr. Neighbour that day! He walked me home. Like finally!
And Mr. Neighbour now has a name!!! Anthony =)
Nope! Not Poh like what Kor said it was.
So I guess I do not need my Tinkie Winkie anymore.
He gave me his name card. Told to me call when I wanted to.
Do I take it for real?
I mean could very well be out of politeness and networking.
Do I call?
To call or not to call? That is the question.
Maybe I could ask him for a game of pool. Or to tan.
Well there, I have 4 causes to rejoice for.
Now some causes for my friends to celebrate.
**I’m kicking him out of my system.
**I’ve started on my exercise routine.
**I’m going to do TONS of sprees.
- 80stees.com
- Drugstore.com
- Hottopic.com
- Delias.com
- Urbanoutfitters.com
- FBT shorts
- Birkenstocks
- Ae.com
- Majorlica majorca
- Taking in requests too =)
**I’m having a stall @ the gashaus flea market on 23rd September
- Please come support me
- Any stuff you guys wanna put up for sale, lemme know.
**To know that I love you guys. Thank you for putting up with me all this while.
- Rui Qing – for taking the brunt of it all, hey!
- Cheryl
- Ting Ai
- Gena
- Trevor
- My brother
- Fen
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- Ariana
- Hariz
- Wei Qing
- Umesh
- Amin
- Dorcas
- Natasha
- Kartini
- Fadzil
- Ying Ying
- Matthew
- Joel – so which Sunday?
From hope stems change
And with change I will triumph
Emerge stronger with victory as my steed
As the world came crashing down, I will rejoice because it can and will make me stronger
It was never about the grades.
You don’t really know me do you?
If grades mattered that much, I would be in school everyday.
Before we were our fyp team.
We were friends.
We talked, we had fun, we worked hard together.
And that is why I am upset now.
Because we have been broken.
Grades are a bonus but friends are the real treasure.
Like how I know now, you aren’t worth my treasuring.
Its been great knowing you.
We had fun.
We had sorrows.
And now, we have our goodbyes.
Goodbye my friend.
With that trickle of red, I close this chapter in my life.
Goodbye my friend.
I loved you.
Don’t doubt that.
23rd July.
4 days has passed.
The day I turned 19.
The day responsibilities stop being a myth. And become a reality.
22nd July was the best day in a long run.
Long run along the avenue of bleakness and gloom.
We had a great afternoon.
Lounging, eating, hanging out.
When Jenn was late, you offered your company despite having to be somewhere else.
I declined, not because I did not enjoy your company.
But because I did not want to be your burden.
That afternoon itself was a gift.
One that brought me immense joy.
The evening wasn’t that bad either. From a rough start to rather cheerful happenings.
Midnight swims in boxers and bikinis.
Bitching about people who knew no shame.
Inability to blow out the candles
Prancing around while caught on video in boxers.
Lousy narration of birthday video.
With even lousier filming skills.
Comparable to the Blair witch project.
Teasing the sleeping
Pillow fights.
Pushing people of the bed.
Parading with only a towel on.
Making people blush.
Mocking horny bunny Qing incessantly.
Peeping at her hot brother. (tried to, was nightblind without my glasses)
Playing “musical chairs” without music around the $13000 chair.
More bitching.
Lazing around the bed.
SUPPER!
Which tasted horrible.
Sleeping.
Falling of the bed and hitting my head.
Sleeping on a bed with my brother and his girlfriend. (how weird is that!)
Was woken up by irritated brother.
Irritated brother was woken up by never ending doorknocks courtesy of horny bunny Qing.
He opened the door with a hard-on. (WELL GOOD MORNING!)
Disgusting oil swimming egg for breakfast.
Voyeurism with breakfasting.
Soaking in tub with horny bunny Qing and divine Kiehls dead sea salt lavender soak.
Seeing her slip in the tub and splashing foam all over.
Seeing her naked. Totally accidental.
Wondering if the body spray nozzles had her drowning.
Bitching about
Ordering brother around like a slave.
Checking out with the assistance of a condescending sissy concierge staff by the name of Bob.
Leaving the place.
Yearning for it.
I’ll be back there.
Soon.
With Qing.
Or someone else.
I hope would be you.
But I know reality has begun.
Its time I faced it.
The day of unforgettable joy.
Irreplaceable memories.
My regrets if I ever had Alzheimer’s.
Credits to:
Daddy for the room.
Mummy for spending moolah to make it all possible.
Jenn, Gene, Hong for my
Horny bunny Qing for my Havaiannas tops in white.
My ever dearest brother for the cupcake like bikini. I love.
William for making it all possible.
Sergeoh for the pig alarm clock. (how apt!)
All my aunts/ uncles for their red packets.
Lastly I would to say thanks to all my friends for their well wishes and their company on that special day.
Sealed into a memory I’ll hold on till my neurons flicker out of life.
FYP brought the ugly side out of many of us.
All of us have one. But we hide it, or keep it at bay so we can be nice.
Your actions, unveil the ugly ones in our team.
We are yours.
Why crack us, why bring this ugly side of us out.
It does us no good.
When you made the comments, I sulked inside but I believed in our team.
I thought I knew it would never crumble. What we had.
Yesterday, that message. It is starting.
The die has been cast.
We have to see it before it is all too late.
We are magnificent.
Let not this trivial matter sink us.
My heart aches when I see how all of us put on that façade.
Since when have we stopped being true to each other?
Its only half the race, lets grab what we have left and do the best we can.
TOGETHER.
No man is an island.
I need you guys.
All of you.
I need you all.
We need each other.
Do not let this bring us down because we are better than that.
I’m scared. I truly am.
Where are you?
Have you forsaken me?
It is our problem, yours and mine, if you are not in it with me.
I am essentially alone.
Thanks to all my friends who are trying to go through this with me.
I love you guys.
But I have to stop being your burden.
I am strong, if I have to do this alone.
I will do it.
I can do it.
With Him, I can.
I may have said countless times. This has to stop.
This time, I know it is for real.
You have said many times, I mean nothing to you.
All your actions are congruent.
It is time I see it.
This is the time.
I woke up this morning, feeling as unwanted as every morning since that Sunday.
But today, it did not hurt as much as it did.
Maybe I’m afraid of the way I love you.
I know you will always be there for me as a friend. That is more then I could say for those around me. Even the closest to me.
That’s why your actions never made me leave you.
Like I said before, no matter how ugly it gets between the both of us. You will always be that friend. The one I count on. The one who would be there for u.
I enjoyed all the fine times we had. I regret all the things I did to you. The only regrets in my life.
I wish you happiness. Every night before I tuck in. You would be the one I pray for.
For happiness, for peace and for strength.
When it gets hard to bear, remember you are not alone.
I cannot help you fight your personal demons but I can fight for you, make sure no demons get your back.
I love you very much. As a friend. As a lover. But nonetheless, very much.
I am ready now. Finally ready, to fall.
I need time now. To be alone, to fight this demon myself.
But I know you are there and that is enough.
Goodbye for now my sweetheart.
We would soon be together. Friends.
To all my pals facing emotional turmoil. I will be here for you guys.
I am not stronger than any of you. But I am not weak because I have all of you.
Let me be here for you.
FYP is coming and know the jitters we all face.
But we are better than this.
Lets just clench our teeth and show the world what we are.
Because we are great.
All of us.
Anyone can be great as long as pushed ourselves to the max. And we all have.
So just take a breather.
It will soon be over and it would not be bad.